Sunday, August 13, 2006
pictures galoreeee. MP IS THE PAST.. for now.
i have finally gotten a new mouse!
been online for 3 hrs already and there are so many pictures to upload that..
i will just let them speak their 'thousand words'
if u actually do count the no. of pictures.
-whistles. wooooeee. thats a gazillion million words for u.
while loadin the pictures into my photobucket..
i wana blog about recent stuff that has reallie affected both zer and i these past 2 months.
its scary how time has fly *cliche as it sounds*
and even scarier- the events that happened during this short short period.
starting from the third week of june this year..
i first stepped into Mpcc *marine parade community center*
with cons. and i brought zer back to play basketball with me..
den suddenly its like everything happened so fast.
loads and loads of new frens.
all different cliques and groups..but when we all come onto the same court to play the same game..thats all that it reallie matters.
and our differences were put aside.
so slowly slowly..
zer and i got more absorbed in mp-related stuff.
spent the last 2 weeks of our holidaes there.
almost every single day.. =x
when sch reopened.
we thought this whole 'fad' / 'phase' would stop but
boy were we wrong!
was chionging -sometimes even to the extent of cabbin down to mp just to play ball and meet out frens.
time passed. and we slowly..began to stuck to a certain grp of frens.
shan't mention the names but the 5 of us.
2 months -perhaps a lil more,perhaps a lil less
2 months worth of activities tt others can only 'hope' to achieve in years.
basketball,studyin,rollar-blading,kite-flying,townnin,dinners,lunches,breakfast,celebration of 2 birthdaes.. for me,3 , going to Vs *Victoria sch* to watch their bball competition,moo-vs..
and ugh.. even.. a funeral.
like all frenships..
there are ups.
and there are downs.
the first one for me would be between me and of the guys.
den more lil quarrels..
in fact. almost all..
at bedok interchange *oh gawd do i hate that place. =x*
its time for zer and i to .. lead them to christ.
i began to realize how hard it was getting.
the pressure of getting them to church.
for the first time in my whole christian walk with God.. i began to stumble and falter when i tried to lead them to HIM.
first was cornerstone one big dae service.
which for some reason.. was changed to YA service at my church.
2 came, 1 didnt.
next was F.O.P.
which in my opinon was a complete f.l.o.p *pun intended*
1 came, 2 didnt.
2nd dae of f.o.p
1 came, 2 didnt.
and that 1 who came.. gave me such a hard time, i was almost reduced to tears.
and i prayed. so so hard. for his/their salvations.
next week. *this week*
was the ultimate.
we planned it for so long. zer and i.
fasted. prayed. tithed.
paid for their tickets.
i went for both days.
first dae. fridae.
we had arranged for all 5 of us to go.
and right at the moment. 1 day before it.
2 couldnt come.
the 1 who was faithful to his promise, is already a christian.
and the planetshakers..was ultimately,
they said they would try.
try their best.
we thought the whole event would end ard 10 plus but no..
it ended at 9.15.
the 2 guys came after the event.
and things..started to go horribly wrong after that.
i told tt one faithful guy.. tt .. this ps concert was the last time we were gona try.
not gona contact the 3 of them after that.
cuz things have gone too far.
and because of this new 'clique'..
zer and i have.. as much as we are ashamed to say this..
we have neglected our frens.
shit began to happen between my best fren and i cuz of this.
and so did the same.. for zer's part.
we thought alot bout it.
concluded that our priorities were all so screwed up.
we concentrated so so much on this new clique that we ..
took for granted the ones that we belonged to.
and so. a drastic conclusion was drawn out.
cant/shant say what has happened but yea u roughly get the idea i guess.
ironically,a date has been arranged.
months from now..
who noes what will happen?
right now. all i wana do is
1-> get my old life back.
i am not giving up on their salvations.
neither is zer.
still gona fast and pray.
even if we dont see them.
'we planted the seeds and although it sucks not to be able to be the ones to fertilise them,to watch them grow.. at least a certain stage has been reached. to that faithful guy, its ur turn to continue for us kaye? dont.. dont let it wither.'
for me.. a certain part .. is reallie reluctant to let go of the memories. cuz..
one of the guys involved.
at a certain period of time.. maybe once. maybe never..
he meant alot to me.
ugh. such a foolish fish i am. to have taken the bait.
guess we clicked. TOO WELL.
anyhow. after this entry im gg to delete the song 'speechless'.
it used to be our song.
not any longer.
to that faithful guy whom in the end.. proved to be one of the sweetest ever, u u u u. =) if u are readin this..
we jus wana sae thanks so much yea. for everything. <3 love and yes we are gona miss u. jus like hw ur gona miss us. haha. rem wad i said bout us being the 3 most special ones yea! haha. byee dude. see ya around... soon. <3
alright. lets not go all misty-eyed anymore.hmm. pics pics!!
*pardon the lag*
National dae celebration in school.
*frog's bumblebee jersey*
*lets not ever grow up! -says bernie and rach"
*typical twinnies lovee*
*helped 4J take their class photo. every year. tsk tsk. *
*patriotic is my middle name*
after sch.home.den with zer.with cons.den kim yip.caught the lake house.stupid show.
national day. *Wednesday*
with zer.ben.caught my super ex gf. esplanade.cam whored with zer on the bus.
maybe we'll go too far,we just dont care