Sunday, September 09, 2007
you said that i will be okay
I may have lost my way now.
haven't lost my way home.
Today could have been one of the most horrible days of the already horrid week.
Issues at home.
Issues with parents.
there's so much more than what i say here and tonight, i spilled a lot of my own lil secrets which i consider well,rather..
or like he says, "weird"
to someone who's pretty special and he knows it too. =)
See today was a day where i had intentions to head down to LIME FLEA MARKET.(sam, Vic )
then possibly back to EMMANUEL (nuo)
den down to pasir ris to NISA'S BIRTHDAY CHALET.
there. all good to go.
then the horrible.
i cant tell you how much i cried because u will taunt me and say
"eeeeeee that emo biatch"
lets just say.
it wasn't a pretty sight.
then after the whole drama stopped, i didnt have the mood to go out anymore.
i wanted to meet the only one i wanted to meet and that was
She couldnt meet me but that was perfectly understandable.
was messaging her halfway while bawling like a fool and then that sudden abrupt call from
who else but driel?
boyy is back from Maldives and damnit what a superb coincidence.
impromptu plans were made and i bussed 22 down to his house.
first thing i noticed when i saw him was the colour of his skin.
which may i add.
is BLOODY BLACK
black like the colour black like night u noe black that COLOUR BLACK?
geee. He left Sg in brown and came back in black.
not surprising though.
the piccas he showed me were amazing (despite the poor photography skills hur hur)
i saw his sea-shell collection and i was BLOWN AWAY.
soft soft sand and oh so so pretty!
i wanted a small one but NO HE REFUSED TO GIMME.
Remember past few entries back
where i asked him for a sea-shell and he said no
maybe a grain of sand or two?
well i was pretty heart-broken when he didnt wana gimme one lil puny sea shell shell from the mini beach he brought back home.
and then suddenly.
that is by far the HUGEST SEA SHELL I'VE EVER SEEN AND OMGAWD IT MADE MY HEART WEAK AND KNEES GIDDY.
but i didnt show it and its kinda sad cuz i guess my reaction to show my appreciation could/should have been BEEGER.
this is the point where my tears should start falling and no they didnt
how feeble i am.
when i need tears to come, they dieeeee also dont wana leak.
when i dont need them, they drip drip drip like a drippy tap.
i think thats what i am-
a drippy tap.
anewway, he bought it.
that silly blubbering foolish fool who said he wasnt gona get me no shit yo
got me the most ASTOUNDING sea shell and he didnt pick it he bought it.
and that made me reallyyyyyyy hei bie cuz friends like that are so adorable aren't they?
say no no no
it cheered me up TONNES.
++ not forgetting that pretty postcard (i really shld stop using the word pretty)
ADRIEL WONG RAINBOW.
that smiley summarises everything i feel.
thank you so so much and remember when i said i would trade what i have now with one of whats inside the mini beach..
its true, and i mean it.
so we hung around in his place a lil longer.
he playing the piano and guitar
while i twirled around in a lil revolving chair and flipped pages from a book called 'HOPE'
then the HIDE-AND-SEEK from the 9 year old brother and 50 year old dad.
Din din was Tori Q at Tamp.
31 down to EAST COAST
and then thats when i guess everything spilled from my lips to his ears
and it felt really warm and nice to just sit there.dangling your feet.
just spilling and spitting everything out
its like relieving a full bladder aint it, wong wong?
it sure felt like that.
and the more i spewed, the more the tears evaporated
and the lighter myy heart got
until i felt like my problems werent..
even problems in the first place.
we sat there for what seems like many minutes and like all dramas do,
the main characters soon realize that Hours have gone by.
cabbed home from marine parade because we missed the last bus
and thank you for paying. =)
He made me realized that being nice, whether you reap the benefits (SAY,GETTING APPRECIATED) or not.. shldnt ever be stopped.
i told him secrets bout me too and please driel, do keep it locked in that head of yours and nowhere else but there kae?
when will i ever have the guts?
Tonight,my heart has lightened.
tonight, i decided to step on clouds and not on mist.
because Clouds are my hope and mist is the dreadful problem pullling me down.
tonight, im stronger than i was in the dayy.
and thats gona last.
Thank you Driel.
ps: arent these heart shaped leaves near my place soo soo sooooooo pretty?
damnit sher stop using the word pretty.
i know im not supposed to post this up but...
maybe we'll go too far,we just dont care