i officially turned eighteen at 915 this april 12th morning. yesterday night when the time hit midnight, that offically marked the covenant i made against alcohol and clubbing (to God) when i was sixteen.
i am eighteen.
hello fattiebombom
yesterday night, i was very disappointed with a cuppa of ppl people whom i expected to recieve a text from, didnt and those i didnt, did.
but for every one person that disappointed, there was another to blow me away by surprise.
DinDin at Parkway with my mum and godpa Ichiban Sushi pigged out. Regretted.
Cabbed home to change because for some uncanny reason, i was in a foul mood the entire day and i hated hated hated my red and white birthday dress which i especially bought at freakin Haji lane just for my Birthday.
you have issues man, sherlynwong changed into something more comfy before i cabbed to tamp to meet Z at Blue Oasis. Lepaked there a while and giggled at the menu before Ben came after planetshakers concert.
Last night, i found out that even though at 15/16, a can of jolly shandy makes me rather tipsy (you dont come and laugh i eat your eyeballs up)
but i guess my body changed (although the height and weight didnt. height decreased weight increased) at eighteen
cause last night i drank the most alcohol i ever drank in my life and i was not at all drunk.
dont get me wrong, i didnt go there with the intention to get drunk (the bible says its wrong to get drunk anyway)
i just wanted to see how far i could go.
and mygoodness, my threshold for alchohol is quite high i must say.
i remember every single thing i did and say (dont worry Zer and ben, i really really know okay haha) all the way from ****** near subway to that phone call to wonderin if things are gona get better to singing blessed be your name and evermore with B and Z. poor thing la they all.
benben didnt drink Z just drank half of hers and i finished for her. (golly i sound like a mega hard core drinker swear im not)
hahaha so it was 11 plus and while doin the mini countdown in my head, i just kept staring at menu okay no more mocktails (actually i was never afraid of ppl mockin me HAHAHA SORRY PUN TOTALLY INTENDED) no more shirley temples
shiok la deh.
hahahaha i duno why i keep gg on and on about this okay sorryzimianzi
so 12 am i asked for the most potent drink
which turned out to be this
i gulped it down in 5-10 mins and then i sat there happily suckin my straw and then Z got a shock and called me mad and i went
"no effect lehhhhhhhhh"
hahaha so they got me two tequila shots and we befriended this really sweet teacher from pinyi sec (NADIAHHHHHHHH!) who's 25 but look 18-19 the most
fav numbaa 17
and she just shouted to everyone at blue oasis that it was my first time drinkin tequila shots and everyone ard there started clapping and whooping and this lady at the table said something bout virgin tequila? duno lah but damn pai seh.
SO.
the moment of truth
one down chey. two down. whoa.
salty salty rim i likey like hot throaaaat hot throaaat
then i waited but other than that,
no effect lehzzzzz.
then came douglas the superviser who's the nicest guy there always so warm and cheery when we go every fri night.
he gave me a birthday treat again, the most 'potent' drink on the house
and i couldnt stomach it in cause the taste was getting to me yucks but ben kept saying no you must drink it all up
so i pinched my already flat nose and swallow swallow
and then okay i started giggling a lil and gg "whohh."
check out Z's expression at this point, this is the whohh moment
i aced their walk in a straight line test. i am damn powerful, seriously manzzz.
snapped a million pics and heeheehee three polaroids.
yeahlayeahla twitfacela
haha super funny the lighting there was uh non-existant so ben jumped up with the menu and said im gg to the light!
Z's
giggles she drink 2 sips she red alreadyyyy
whooh moments
7-11 to get a barcadi lime just cause i wanted to use my new found legal power which was pretty dumb really cause i ended up drinkin barely three sips and givin them the rest and the guy at 7-11 never even asked for my ID.
cabbed home with Z around three?
tried to go online but by then i was really really feelin tired and sleepy so i plopped onto the bed and then i woke up at 8 plus by my mum.
i got a really really really sweet surpise but that goes into the next entry. Aye Kelvin, you leave me literally speechless,lah. =)
Syida- you the best. seriously you the best.
i think people like her are so bloody rare and few.
she CALLED ME slightly after 12, TEXT ME, TAGGED ME, FRIENDSTER COMMENTED, AND FREAKIN DEDICATED AN ENTIRE BLOG ENTRY FOR ME.
wtfishandco. where got people so nice one i think already also want to cry.
PS: if you havent already noticed, i tried pulling my hair down to cover my rather exposed chest so if certain pics you see things u shldnt see right can you just please focus on the hair the face and not my wunnerfully sexy eightynine bucks mango top yes i am bragging ha ha ha.
BenBen-thank you so so much for the text msg arghhhh you made me cry. Z-I LOVE YOU. and when i said it last night a cuppa of million times, i meant it and i am sober whether you think i am or not. COME ON MANN TEST ME. I REMEMBER EVERYTHING.
SU- annie i love you lah thanks for calling and the texts and everything else i'll see you tonight. big hug l8er k. me love you deep deep.
Larry- you were the first. exactly 12. okay i got heart attack when i saw your name. hahaha.
to the ppl that actually bothered to msg me AT TWELVE. i am freaking thankful for people like you.
also, i think ppl portray me as happily depressed. a third of my text msges recieved , told me to cheer up and i deserve nothing less than the best and "dont sound so sad on your blog"
coolio happily depressive. i likey like.
and lastest but not leastest,
to my dearest daddyGod, you are BEYOND awesome. for blessing me with so much so abundantly. every morning when i finger-write the word faith on the steamy bathroom mirror, i see myself and i see you. everytime i trace the word thats inked on my skin, i push myself to remind myself. how much you have done for me. how far i have come in 18 years of life. 2 major heartbreaks,boys who break and break, i still pull through two education failures, i still pull through For every impt person that left without a reason, i still pull through For every sickness that plagued me from being hospitalized to the monthly flu in 07, i still pull through
You, You above everyone else,above every fool that judges me see me for who i am in my heart your stand in my heart,my life your position, you consume me. God, you consume me. i am Consumed by You. Your faithfulness never fails.
You,alone know how scared i am to wake up every morning. the fear of rejection, the hope. the fall. how worried i am how depressed i got when i think about MDIS when i think about how i wasted my one year in ngee ann to try twice to try so hard for Tp CMM but still, ended up here. round and round about this sick cycle carousel(ooh lifehouse) but throughout this rough ride, You are Always with me.
i turn eighteen am eighteen and will only be eighteen once. i ask of You,dear Lord to just protect everyone every single one near and dear to me. for the people that hurt me, you know who they are i ask for You to Love them. even more for me, to love them. dont ever ever ever let me bruise others on purpose you know how bitchy i get sometimes so smack me upside down if i get too malicious.
Eighteen means im legal to club to drink to smoke ciggies (i will never smoke btw and you know that) even to buy lottery toto 4D and gamble all my clothes away but keep me rooted keep me guarded keep me righteous in your eyes.
when i party, know that deep down i am Yours who cares if they call me slutty who cares if they call me wild i could go on ranting forever about how they speak unkindly of me but i know i know i know that it. does.not.matter.what.they.think.
it doesnt matter how they judge me ultimately at the altar, it is Your Call. Your Say. so for everyone who puts me down, for my actions, for my words. for every malicious gossip that spreads because of what senseless schmutz(s) read on this page. for every Christian who judges me and non-christian alike, for everyone who sees only the exterior,
nudge me.
nudge me like msn nudge to lemme know that you seek out the interior.whatever good i have in me.
help me,God. Help me. help me be Strong to continue seeing you for who You are and not what You can DO FOR ME.
if you can move friggin mountains, i dont see why you cant put me in tp cmm this year but at the end of the day, Not My Will But Yours Be Done
Im keeping my Faith. I love you God.
more than words can say. more than life itself.
Even if my world falls i will say, above all, i live for Your Glory
