gawd. i feel so demoralized.
if there's one thing i h8 more than anything else in the world,
it's doing something i feel no passion about.
i detest the word passion. it sounds so cheap being tossed around by individuals and competitors in a talent show.
i am a quitter. i quit when things get hard.
the idea of a office job makes me cry.
tmr i will be stuck in one for 8 hours.
i hate the fact that im a quitter.
this, this really isnt me but i am tired of being a quitter.
yet i know deep down,
i cannot stand being anything or doing anything im not.
i dont care if the rest of the world sucks those lemons and work on everything except their dream job.
im determined to get what i want. i dont know how i dont know when but i will.
and im so tired of the circumstances failing me every month every week every year, of people failing me
i got to stick up for myself.
Oh God. please help me.