last night was tough.these days, nights are getting tougher.
the monsters shriek and shriek and i cant sleep.
and then my thoughts will fly and then, its no good.
im so pissed off with myself.
i lost $46 bucks in poker yst and thats the most i've ever lost in gambling and im really annoyed (with myself) cause that $50 was my own hard earned money and im seriously completely flat broke now cause i dont take allowance anymore and just now i texted my mum to transfer me money and i felt so bloody useless. i seriously need to practice some self-control or better poker skills. i cant bluff for nuts, i rely on luck and yesterday was damn UN-GOODLUCK.
bad stuff aside, its april 7th so 5 more days to my birthday.
this year, i will be heading to bintan on my birthday with nick.
im pretty excited. its really cheap, $175 for 3 days 2 nights plus breakfast and deluxe room plus ferry to and fro from singapore to bintan.
we got a really good deal. for anyone who's interested in bintan, you should google takemetoasia and buy from that tour agency. mega super effficient in replying emails.
i cant believe im turning twenty.
i have been blogging since i was 12 so thats 8 long years of nonsense.
im starting to drift away from this space cause honestly, i think im losing my head.
metaphorically that is.
im getting old, im getting tired.
twenty's not that old! you say but boy am i feeling so... lifeless.
pictures are decieving, videos are facades.
maybe i will post a video of bangkok soon.
for now, here's the answers of my formspring to the few who asked
God bless you guys.
