there is no point in being bitter or cold or resentful.
everything about that and that and that is ugly.
relive the good moments and hold firm to what's in front of you
your unwavering, never failing support
some things you just cant forget
some things best if you play pretend
i dont want to pretend anymore
everyone, myself included, is an ugly shell
a whirl a mess a mix of hypocrisy
always wanting what we cannot have
its the fights we avoid
to sustain the memories
to keep the ugly caged in
to keep the flame from burning out
but i think in a world of love, balance is the key
and balance is what we need.
i am not going to risk my heart anymore.
i am tired of having to ask.
and mostly, mostly exhausted from being the one to throw my pride away and reach out time and time and time again even when its the last fucking thing i want to do, but i do it all the same.