Are you over him am i over him are you? am i? yes? no. yes. no?
yes.
What a man wants is a mate and what a woman wants is infinite security and what a man is is an arrow into the future and what a woman is is the place the arrow shoots off from. -The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath
7th April Monday
Vivo with Pris ankles in the water,dasio,fake grass,heat,air-conditioning,shopping me moaning on and on about the colour of my hair and pris assuring me tt its nice noooo its not i hate my brown hair i want braaack hair. long john, <3 to <3 talk Boys and Life Boys and Life
though we aren't exactly the closest/oldest of friends, i hope you know that i will be here for you no m8er what. so please cheer up dear pris =)
a lot of piccas i cannot put up because its very COMPROMISING and tts not a good image to potrayyyy anyway i also got tiny cherries might as well dont see so i shall spare you the trouble and just concentrate on the FACE ok the FACE ok. hahaha
she left for work and i mrt-ied down to Town to meet Z who was frightfully late rawrr so i walked around first by my poor lonesome self and i saw jordus and a cuppa of other ngee ann familiar faces.
Z came and we went to cine num couldnt get my grey skinny havis they ran out of my size 6 and i was seriously disappointed
with the amount of num stores popping up like popcorn in sg, you should think that vivo,citylink,heeren and CINE would at least be able to have a single pair right?
that shows havis are mega common
went to paragon to visit mchunk
saw Vee with Victoria which was mega cool since i was at Zara before that and i saw a top tt made me go "so ver!" and then pew pew pew saw her right there at the traffic light after that. babe, next week okay okay okay. hahaha.
Sakae Sushi at Wheelock Place bitchy girlzz at the side blatantly staring at us so pluck your backside hair stare what starezzzz.
yet another talk with Z leaving me feelin like im all enlightened again.
the two talks have left me with a conclusion (and i swear im right on this one) that getting into a relationship at our age is the most absolutely stupid thing to do.
i never really thought about the guys' POV when it comes to getting into one. but yesterday, i did.
i just typed a whole chunk of how the guys suffer more in the relationship but get the upper hand at the end of it (as in split-up) but i decided that it was too unlike me.
(if you dont already know,im a girlzzruleboysdroolzz, chicks over dicks kinda person)
so whatever the case, i think being in love is cool its fun and it makes you all happy and bubbly inside and you are literally floating on cloud 9 10 11 12. that having someone on the other line , to turn to at the end of the day is assuring and secure
but at the end of the day, like zer says you never know when he might suddenly turn around without warning tell you he's sick of everything and poop one big atom of shit and break off with you.
hahaha okay she didnt exactly say that but her pt was you never know when the break up question might come out.
i thought about it and mm. very very true.
no point, really no point getting into a relationship now.
wa i couldnt stop thinking about it the entire 65 journey home,
smart boy! he saw it before i did. zhen cong ming.
( i got a feeling the next time i get married i will look back at this and cringe)
BTW, I ALREADY DECIDED WHO I WANT TO MARRY ALREADY. as in SERIOUSLY SAY SERIOUS.
i want to marry you i want o to marry you i want to marry you i hope God allows me to marry youuuuuuu giggles bestie,Z and Nel knows this hahahaha.
hahaha anyway its 106 pm in the afternoon on a tuesday morning and GUESS WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT, its 4 more days to my 18th BAAARFDAYYYYYY.
i got birthdaay wishlist which tooo bad you must reaadddzzz hahaha
1. king charles spaniel puppy sighhhhh sexy thing from Simei Pet Safari 2. Cactus plant the small kind hahaha 3 Leather Bracelets 4. Chunky Bangles bangles bangles i love bangles 5. Letters 6. Helium Balloons 7. Blue Roses 8. John Grisham's latest novel
and it realllyyy sucks that nette and sam got camp on my birthday so we cant all go and celebrate with Yanyan and Dandan whom i haven seen for a super mega long time and freakin mdis yucks starts on mon april 14th wa i hate this
hate hate hate hate this.
if mdis is filled with cheena biang foreigners and or mega wild childzzzzz or extremely scary characters or ppl i cannot click with because they all like stuffz that i dont likezzz,
i will run straight home all the way from queensway to bedok bare-footed and cry.
i hate this man. i really hate this dont want to go freakin mdis at gawd knows where while i watch everyone else happily gg TP. hate this.
stop.thinking.about.it.sher
mm tonight is con's 18th barfday celebration! everyone her birthday is on the 9th go and text her if you know her if you duno her go her friendster and wish her
yayyyy cannot waitttt to see my bestest friends =)
a rather late revelation but at least it starts now.
like a tiger in the dark you were hungry from the start
i hate how i lose control of my tongue and the harsh words i say when i get hurt. i cant stand all these vulgarities that roll so freely when im in pain. im sorry S.
i tore my freaking. knee ligament again. the last time, the sinseh said one more time, gone case.
im damn scared. really damn bloody scared. thrice already.
looks like i need Sean's crutches again.
oh my gawd im in bloody frickin SHIT PAIN. i cant stand it.
CANT BLOODY STRAIGHTEN MY KNEE I CANT WALK.
seriously idk wthell's wrong with my body.
SHIT. SHIT YOU. SHIT.
please say shit is not a vulgarity.
Vivo marche. home. met Stefan. tore bloody leg ligament. home.
im really mad at myself. mad at my body.
mad.
here's bloody pictures. im gg off to bed now. bye.
